2007 December:

2007 August:

Stuck inside a pit of despair,
How my soul rests..
At the thought of the destruction I had wrought upon the land

Blood lust-
How it amuses me to see your pain,
To taste your fear as I steal the last breath to which your soul clings

But now,
As the memories never cease
My life has no meaning,
And I cn't seem to ease...
The pain that engulfs my heart
And tears at my soul

To my pain I am a slave,
Gnarled and twisted
I want only peace,
To be condemned tothe grave
Is all that my very being screams for

On the wings of death I wish my soul to ride,
May that angel cloaked with ebony
Save my sanity,
Yet kill my pride

No chance,
No point,
Oh, accursed lord of cruelty and longing
I beseech thee!
Take of me what you will,
But of me alone

Share not my pain and broken heart,
Not even my bleeding soul deserves such punishment
Let my family sleep,
Sleep in dreams not twist in nightmares
And I, scream in pain

I beseech thee!
Take solely of me
Send my body to the grave
If only that is what you will

Save my family from all that Hell wishes upon them
Save the bloodshed
Save them!
Let them live in peace,
Let not a single drop of blood caress the ground...
Let them sleep,
Amongst themselves, safe and sound