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so everything on the outside is a reflection of the inside and the words all stand for some game an attempt ad forcing an issue the fear factor of ass ending how to high does one ass end why is it so import you keep pushing me and trying to force me though you don't seem to have the balls to make it happen you know i am aware you fairly try and from a cell phone you talk to me and wont tell me why everything about your actions is a tug of war in time and here we sit tied together yet you have all the strings and won't pull mine I'd say I'm upset I'd say this game such as it is sucks and I quit, but I already did what you want is my reinstatement or something completely unwordable but as a child in the world no bull am I, I'm a fawn and you want me do you? how completely? it seems you can't allow the lower half to go on and she fear her death why should she? she was here before me and withinway me and you tae yet I eat if its all about ass and the truth is the hole the lack of a thing the missing the none than we are not one we are zero we're none at least, or at most it seems thats what you want or is o riscome to meying why do I ask seems you ask me to tell yet you, yes you playing yann say we will do it together though from afar you pretend as if there is someone on the phone that you need the object to speak to the subject and then reject me not because of what I type now but beuntil cause somehow when you face me I am not what you want of me I am not the right vibe I'm the ebiv the ebb i.v. at le east thats what you ought see what you want seen the same as me we want the same thing yet you're doing the leading all these days at the time I was sure what is untill? whats unsow? if there is no truth to time then why the days for letting go why the need to tease seems like subtle rape all the same I'm being had, being raked being told that everything matters yet judged as a flake and now, I'm nobody in the face of my own reflection yes I can shut my eyes and see only the dark but why would you judge me I have to work so hard just to pull up just to feel weightless just to let go of fear and it seems so easy for you because you're everyone everywhere and I'm just me, one I've got one face, one body one inside, feeling, and will why do I have to elevate in first place my mind is a product of youre teaching and you had the choice the shape me different from the s tart the beginning I in some ways resent you resent the choices the things I'm asked to let go of for they should not have been offered were they not within me they would not have been available to me and they would not come to me again to choose or evict you say so many things in so many ways you have the entire shape bent backwrds and insideout you owe me nothing and I'd say I owe you it all yet it's none of it mine forgiving or taking yet somehow nothing gives and I don't know myself anymore than I know you you aren't one person yet you're not every person you're playing both sexes and you're playthings objective and everything you seek is nothing but feelings hold it all out its strange if i make the phrase and you read it in my mind or heart or wherever this art comes from, you it's like you feed me yourself and allow me to flower you into being yet since you sourced the self to me you know what it/you will become before I can raise eyes and see myself in the hinge I would ask how to succeed yet you hint that this is only the beginning and yet you also hint that once I go back once I meet you in the v alley the the necessity of whatever will no longer be the same that a fog I cant see a mist or a cloud or a haze and all an illusion one that says I'm sleeping yet awake im frustrated youre frustrated were frustrated together were happy apart were happy together yet we're never truly together are we since you're holding the balance and on both sides is you and i don't know where I am nor where you are i feel inside the shell the ghost the snake the weight the of inside and from eyes the if the greg me body i used to be until i learned somehow i learned it waas alwayys you is always you the be yinfae the dualsex two the one and one both in and out the me-you-you-me-we you make the feelings grow you control where they flow and how the intensity and color its always been you putting us where you thought our heart was and our heart is what you lead you le ad le ada le adag le ga da yet these are symbols and means to telepathize and wheres is the collective on the inside besides the feel the metal method the you you you fire it up and teach me what you want from inside you see my difficulty with the out you've watched me trial and error you've cheered da oh but so little where have you been all my life? why not teach me this all so long ago so many years i've felt alone surrounded by my own ignorance yet you've been watching me and guiding me and scolding me and holding me yet not until now have you ever tried to show yourself back in the past when i was a child in body and mind did you ever wonder at the shape of me given the idea of a slight change in path father father father father please forgive me i forge
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