FACING DEATH WITH ECSTASY

Diane never smoked marijuana, and she disapproved of her mother's past
drug experiments. But cancer made the 33-year-old teacher ready to try
anything that might help: she hoped she would find a cure in herbs
from a Tibetan doctor or in the hands of a faith healer deep in the
Brazilian rain forest.

Then, as the pain and fatigue of advanced colon cancer left Diane
increasingly bedridden, she just wanted the strength to get out of
bed.

That's when she found ecstasy, the illegal drug people often take at
all-night dance parties.

Though ecstasy can damage hearts and brain cells, some researchers say
the hallucinogen can also inspire deep feelings of well-being and
intimacy with others.

For a few hours at a time as the ecstasy took hold, Diane would leave
her disease behind and walk in the park, sing with her parents, or
talk about death without fear, her mother said.

Ecstasy "was the only thing that controlled the pain and her
breathing," said Diane's mother, a Boston-area resident who asked not
to be identified because last year she helped provide the illegal
drugs for her daughter, whose middle name was Diane. "She was
emotionally and spiritually uplifted" when she was on ecstasy. "She
was her funny, witty self."

John Halpern of McLean Hospital in Belmont, Massachusetts, plans to
study ecstasy in patients with advanced cancer.

Forty years after widespread abuse led to a virtual ban on medical
research involving psychedelic drugs, experiences like Diane's are
leading scientists to take a second look. Though ecstasy, LSD, and
"magic mushrooms" are now known by their partying reputation,
psychedelic drugs were once seen as a promising treatment for
schizophrenia and other mental conditions.

A police officer is seen inside a drugs lab on a farm in Nederweert,
southern Netherlands. Police raided a lab where the synthetic drug
ecstasy was being produced and four people were arrested.

Though ecstasy and LSD are now known by their partying reputation,
psychedelic drugs were once seen as a promising treatment for
schizophrenia and other mental conditions.

Already, researchers in Miami are giving heroin addicts a hallucinogen
called ibogaine in an attempt to reduce withdrawal symptoms.

Rape victims in South Carolina take Eecstasy in a study designed to
help them talk about their ordeals.

And soon, John Halpern at McLean Hospital in Belmont will begin giving
ecstasy to people with advanced cancer to help them cope with the pain
and anxiety of dying.

For advocates of psychedelic drug research, the study at McLean, an
affiliate of Harvard University, represents a chance to reduce the
stigma hanging over the field.

Back in the 1960s, Harvard professor Timothy Leary helped spur the
backlash against psychedelic drugs with ethically questionable
experiments and by advocating recreational LSD use to "turn on, tune
in, drop out." Halpern, by contrast, is a respected researcher whose
past studies have found no evidence of brain damage among Navajos who
regularly ingested peyote, a psychedelic drug derived from cactus.

"This is not Leary saying to young people ... ." Take LSD. "Drop out,
and we're going to change society," said Rick Doblin, president of the
Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies, an advocacy
group that has pushed for resumption of psychedelic studies for years.
"This is something that can be helpful to people who have never done
drugs before, and after they are done, they are not going to go out
and undermine the foundations of our society."

But the research is politically loaded, coming at a time when the Bush
administration is fighting efforts to offer marijuana as an
anti-nausea medicine for cancer patients.

Federal officials fear that research showing medical value for illegal
drugs will only encourage drug abuse.

David Murray, special assistant in the White House Office of National
Drug Control Policy, said that some psychedelic studies are fueled by
an agenda to promote the use of these drugs.

"This might not be a dispassionate quest for truth," he said, noting
that Doblin's group has sued the federal government in support of a
University of Massachusetts professor who wants to grow marijuana for
research. Initially Doblin's group also planned to pay US$250,000 for
the ecstasy study at McLean, though Doblin withdrew support in favor
of a donation from Peter Lewis, chairman of the Progressive Group of
Insurance Cos in Ohio.

Partly because of such skepticism, Halpern's research was held up for
more than a year while he struggled to get federal permits.

That was more time than Diane had when her mother first read an
article last June in which Doblin suggested that ecstasy might help in
"facing directly life's great challenge, to die gracefully and in
peace." So, after being turned away by Halpern, Diane's mother found
her own "psychedelic therapist" who was willing to lead Diane on trips
with ecstasy, also known by its chemical name, MDMA.

"Before her first session, Diane could only get out of bed for a few
minutes at a time. Sitting or standing caused her pain to spike to
unbearable levels," her mother wrote in an essay after Diane died last
fall. "During the first session with MDMA, Diane's pain receded, her
spirits soared, and she was able to walk to a park near my house and
hang out with a friend."

The psychedelic therapist, who asked that he not be named because of
fear of prosecution, admitted in an interview with the Globe that he
was only guessing at what might help Diane -- and he was initially
afraid that he might kill her. After all, she was on a dozen
medications, including methadone, which had caused an irregular heart
rhythm -- and ecstasy can make heart problems worse.

After experimenting with various psychedelic drugs, he found a dose of
ecstasy -- about twice the level to be used in the McLean study --
that seemed to bring Diane peace, allowing them to talk directly about
her illness. Diane's mother recalled that "on one occasion, the
therapist asked Diane how she felt about her pain. She said it was
like an unruly child in need of attention. She would send it love."

On her final day, Diane slept peacefully for hours after taking
ecstasy, her mother said, without moans and gasps.

That night, "she opened her eyes with an expression of absolute
wonder, reached out to touch her dad, and died," according to Diane's
mother. "We are honored to have witnessed and shared a holy
experience, my daughter's good death." But outside observers caution
that psychedelic drug treatment is ethically risky: What begins as
treatment for anxiety could become experiments in altering a dying
person's consciousness. That, one analyst said, could take away from
someone's ability to be fully engaged at the end of life.

"If we're altering their mental experience and their sense of ... the
dying process, then we're crossing some boundaries that need to be
very highly considered," said Keith Meador, director of the theology
and medicine program at Duke University Divinity School.

For now, Halpern said, he just wants to do the research to better
understand how the drugs affect people with cancer, 40 percent of whom
say in surveys that they don't get enough treatment for pain. Working
with an oncologist from the Lahey Clinic in Burlington, he is
beginning to look for 12 advanced cancer patients to undergo ecstasy
therapy as well as counseling.

"It's always been about doing good science," said Halpern. "Is this
helpful for people with cancer and their families?

That is the only question we are trying to answer."