LEFT OUT OF THE CELEBRATION

Their Hopes And Fears Know No Season

"If I could erase this year and do it over, I would," said Anthony
Boyce, a heroin addict who wanted to check into a detoxification
program and celebrate the dawn of the New Year by sleeping through
it.

"I need to clear my head and not think about what to do next," said
Boyce, 47. "When you're carrying a load on your shoulders 24 hours a
day, it gets to where you can't think of a way out."

At the Positive Health Project, a walk-up sanctuary at 305 W. 37th
St., some of the homeless and destitute shared their modest hopes and
considerable fears as a few blocks away Times Square was being readied
for the biggest New Year's Eve show in its history. The project
dispenses more than 13,000 clean syringes and 36,000 condoms a month,
along with advice about staying healthy on the street.

Dolores Serina, 35, said that she had to move into a women's shelter
after her husband went to prison for selling drugs and city officials
declared their basement room an illegal dwelling. Although she said
she was in a methadone program to battle her craving for heroin, Ms.
Serina had to leave her 4-month-old son with her mother-in-law until
she can scrape up money for an apartment. "Going into the New Year,
I'm scared," Ms. Serina said, as she huddled against her companion,
Rolando Morales, 25, whose drug-injecting left him
HIV-positive.

"A lot of these people haven't slept last night," Ms. Serina said.
"They depend on this place for safety."

For the first time, the project's executive director closed the needle
exchange and other services this New Year's Eve for fear that his drug
users would get swept up by the officers patrolling the celebration at
Times Square.

Mrs. Serina said, "I look around and I see people spending money on
all these little gizmo-gadgets and I say, 'My God, if they only gave
me a dollar, I'd be all right."'