made: first tan of the season fron sneaking in an hr or two outside yesterday
made: great van sex
made: finished some shit
blah: lotsa shit left to do
blah: head feels several sizes bigger
blah: no sleep for da wikkid
blah: money situation sucks docnkey cock
made: ..which will hopefully all change within a month or two

not true. higher brain functions allow to make more sense of instincs and use them to your advantage instead of letting them lead you astray.

regardless of what anyone says, all final decisions are based on emotion. what leads to the decision may be analytical up the gazoo, but no amount of analysis can make you TOTALLY SURE, so final decision is always in some way kind of like "aw fuck it!"

now alot of people misinterpret emotions/instincts and may not understand what their body/brain hormonal balance is trying to tell them. it may be good to distance oneself in order to get to a point you are no longer DEPENDENT on them. once there, though, and you have the power to steer your own emotions and use them to your advantage, and read insticts correctly... it becomes what it always should have been if majority of people weren't so confused - another way of your subconscious communicating with your conscious.

whether anyone's aware of it or not, thats really what this shit comes down to.

^-- and we want pics

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Give it time Nie. I used to think the exact same way. As years pass and you get more experience you realize some issues aren;'t black and white, and this is the epithome of such. That's really all I'm going to say because no amount of arguments or proof can substitute for that simple understanding. That aside, I also think your first paragraph is unduly harsh and is not necessarily true, especially in the case I've described.

i never knew cara had such photoskillz. and anne looks great...

i think its called Shok

There you have it. All this talk of soup made me want to put up the recipee for a good ol' Ukrainian style BORSCHT!

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Kiev-style Borscht
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Amount Measure Ingredient -- Preparation Method
-------- ------------ --------------------------------
-----STOCK-----
1 1/2 pounds Beef chuck roast boneless
1 pound Beef marrow bones
1 pound Ham bone meaty
1 each Onion large grated
1 each Carrot grated
3 quarts Water
1 each Turnip peeled & grated
1 each Celery rib w/leaves sliced*
3 each Dill sprigs*
3 each Parsley sprigs*
12 each Black peppercorns whole*
4 each Bay leaves*
-----SOUP-----
3 each Beets large peeled grated
4 each Potatos peeled and cubed 1"
16 ounces Plum tomatos skinned & -- coarsely chopped
1 each Onion large chopped
1 each Carrot sliced
1 each Bell pepper chopped
1/4 cup Sunflower oil
1 teaspoon Salt
4 cups Cabbage shredded
3 tablespoons Tomato paste
6 each Prunes pitted & chopped
1 teaspoon Honey
1 teaspoon Black pepper fresh ground
1/2 cup Sour cream or plain yogurt
4 each Garlic cloves minced
2 each Bacon strips fried & -- crumbled
2 tablespoons Parlsey fresh chopped
3 tablespoons Dill fresh chopped

All ingredients marked with the { * } are to be placed in a small cloth bag.
Tie the bag shut and place into the stock pot. Place meat bones, meat, and
water in alarge stock pot and bring to a boil over high heat. Skim the foam
as needed. Add the remaining stock ingredients, cover, reduce heat to low
and simmer for 1 hour. Preheat the oven to 375 degrees F. Wash, dry, and
peel the beets. Wrap them in aluminum foil and bake in oven for 1 hour 15 minutes.
Remove from oven, allow to cool, and dice 1/4". Remove the ham bone, meat & marrow
bones from the stock. Set the marrow bones aside. Strain the stock through
a fine sieve into a clean pot. Discard the solids.
Bring the stock to a boil add the tomatos, potatos and salt & pepper and cook for 10 minutes
on low heat covered. Cook the onions, carrot, & Bell pepper in a castiron
skillet for approx. 5 minutes.. Stir in the cabbage and continue to cook the vegetables
for 10 more minutes.
Remove the begetables from heat and add to the stock.
Sprinkle the juice of a lemon over the beets and add them to the stock.
Add the tomatos, tomato paste, and honey to the stock and continue to
Remove the meat from the bones, strip the marrow out of the marrow bones
, and cube the beef 1/2" & add all of this to the stock and cook for 15 minutes more.
Remove from heat and serve after adding a generous dollop of sour cream to each bowl.


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exactly.. i think people who choose the opposite are often basing it (often subconsciously) on internal self esteem issues, and needing to be reaffirmed by someone... of course there are other reasons but thats probably the biggest and most common one.

you sure hit the nail on its head dude, stopping myself from giving you hot love was one of the hardest things i had to do

right. or the second one without the crappy aspects which ultimately comes up to the same thing.

unfortunately, avoiding the question will not change reality.

i didnt exemplify this particular scenario above with no reason. those of you with experience know, that it is very often exactly what happens. people with more to offer (passion, vibrant personality, looks etc.) have more choice. with choice comes temptation. when you cant do much in that direction anyway (at least not without alot of effort), you don't even need to resist anything because temptation is not there, and when it is, you will think long and hard before you risk what you have. if on the other hand you feel that you keep on giving and are being mistreated, and opportunities are all there, it takes that much more willpower not to slip.

never cheated on a girl *I* considered a girlfriend. been cheated on. its cool tho, thickens your skin and makes you re-evaluate the black and white view on this most of us seem to have at earlier points of adult life.

heres an interesting question to ponder: whats better - a partner who REALLY loves you, cares for you, is great in all respects (looks, personality etc) and one day when youre having a tough time or something - slips, cheats, comes back and honestly confesses everything, reaffirms his/her love and is sorry as hell; OR, a partner who is all right but has some aspects you dont quite like, says he/she loves you but it often feels like the passion is not quite there, annoys and/or bores you a bit, BUT are loyal as hell and you know for sure wont cheat, telling yourself it is because the person is just stable like that but really wondering if it's because they are afraid of losing you and dont know if they can do any better.

would you keep the first? would you be happy with the second? my answers to those questions would probably be different five years ago... but right now i'll take the first over the second anyday.

dude, youre so compassionate youre like the male version of mother theresa... if only others could embrace their inner teddy the way you do, the world would be such a beautiful place *sheds a happy tear*

i think the new one is great too... maybe you should have a faded church kinda seen in the black background tho, party name is electric church and all and i see no church

you people are forgetting supergreg... hes #1 t3h ghey, even his demo video says so! lol

dude u live in verdun? we neighbours... hehe..

and superscott is gonna show us all hows its done! right scottie? ;)

you mean a trance dj punching streak. hehe

thats so junior high,.....or emo.

;)

I find NOT calling back after 1 time is just as much "the game" as purposely holding out and "playing hard to get" . Wanna AVOID "the game" ? Just act on your instincts and do what feels right. If you're into the guy/girl enough to call him/her back even after no responce, once or twice... do it.. if not... fuck it. No need to overanalyze shit.

And Yas: are you as crayzee on the phone as in person? Cuz if so... we're starting a pay-per-minute entertainment 900 number baybee... :lol

i find most girls just loooooove being confused ;)

at least its not white powder.

search engine was down and is back now, gmail is still down

hottest hardcore pie hole porno phonesex i've ever had... heather you're one kinky mama! im spent...

Anybody notice [ www.google.com ] "Could not be found" starting 2 minutes ago and its back just now.


it starts.....

^-- proof that girls are NEVER happy :b Call em rarely and they want you to harrass them, harass em and theyre freakin out.. hehe

of course what is left unsaid here is it that the frequency of the guy's calls is usually inversely proportional to how hot/socially adapted he is. aint that a bitch



now if y'all excuse me I gotta go and call Heather back.


:lol ;)

not true

alot of times a guy will talk to and get together with a girl if she calls him but wont call himself (or call alot) cuz hes just thinking about other stuff

doesnt mean hes not into her, it only means hes not thinking about her when hes doing his shit. in this department, guys are mostly not like girls (who like to think AND talk about guys during their free as well as non-free time, and dont tell me you dont, ladies :b ).

leave a message twice. once the one you just left and another 2 weeks. no callback = next

too much thinking.

if you like him, call him. if you dont, dont. it really is that simple and life is alot easier this way

later that night, ben just came up to me and told me he just punched someone in the face for talking shit on the internet. i didnt even know it was ian just yet then. then ben walked off, sat on the bar and started playing with the JiveAssRadio fisher price sound recorder.

hehehehe

i say women on brasilian wax is a beautiful thing.

^-- yep, thats cuz in canada life is so good people simply have no concept of REAL problems, like people you know getting killed or their limbs torn off, or even something as trivial as no sugar or toilet paper in stores for months.

i also think thats the reason people turn to drugs alot. too much free time due to high quality of life.

its a vicious circle, because once life is so good nobody gives a shit, real problems are just waiting to happen.

probably. i thought it was juts co.uk but its actually same on [ maps.google.com ]

did you guys read the thing on microsoft flying car on theregister.co.uk ? hilarious...

you should ask Jocelyn D about her friend Lady Selekta (Natalie). She's a great reggae dj, and has a respectable gig at luba lounge.

I would set it up throughe-bay. Just make multiple accounts and sell shit off them. Make special packages of multiple items with volume discounts. Since the transactions are done on a person-to-person level, you can mark your boxes 'gift' and the recipient wont pay customs.

My lasalle college fashion chick frends ordered tons of trendy shit off ebay shipped to them from us, uk or taiwan/china.

damn, sarah lost some weight

carlos is a jap in denial.. lol

Anybody who remotely kept track of the oldskool tracker scene in the 90s probably knows the name Andy Sega or more likely his alias, 'Necros'. The dude released a vast amount of great music, won contests, made soundtracks for cutting edge demos which won contests, produced music for games and videos, and alongside being amazingly talented is also a chill guy who I've had the pleasure to get to know a little on the oldskool scnenenet #trax channel. Even his unreleased shit which he only passed around there was wayy better than 90% music I've heard.

The reason I'm posting this is that I've recently learned about his new experimental electronica indie project, Alpha Conspiracy. Not expecting anything less than great from this new and evolved Andy, I went to [ www.alphaconspiracy.com ] and downloaded the free shit in 'media section'.

It was even better than I expected.

Even if you never heard of trackers and the old demoscnene, go [ www.alphaconspiracy.com ] "Close". You may or may not share my tastes, but I think most will find that track extremely difficult to dislike. Others are great too, but this one takes the cake hands down.

As for the more old-school producers around here who remember Andy, I'm sure you won't be disappointed, just like I wasn't.

Enjoy.

oh yeah...

mine's more oldskool than all of you. hah :b

hehe great post. I value stupid people too tho, for real. otherwise who the hell would flip burgers and shit? we dont have robots for that yet.. i'll prolly change my opinion above once we do... :lol