i love cats and i want a perma-kitty too
i especially liked it when my cat would maul people and then come snuggle with me. i felt so priviledged. it was like the ultimate species has chosen to be my friend

i loved mulholland drive
and i thought that it made sense
the scene where the girl on stage says "silencio" over and over again was the best

layers upon layers
the ashes from hell coat my tongue
and name me as one
of the fallen
i am hollow in this place
where loneliness clutches
at my flesh like a beast
devour me and rape my soul
for all love is lost in me
i scrye my temptations
in the pool of blood at my feet
the passion of pain
draws the heat from my veins
cry my demise
to the crimson cast skies
switchblade of time
take me home

i know someone who's kicked their chronic addiction to pot without replacing it with something else. so it is possible, you just have to really want to do it and then stick with your decision

ahh....i completely forgot about boondock saints and lock stock....i love those two, and fight club, american history x
so many movies....
favorite films from childhood: bedknobs and broomsticks and the sound of music

i have horribly bitchy thoughts that i wish i had the guts to share with people
but alas, i swallow my tongue and remain silent, cuz if you haven't got anything nice to say don't say it at all right?

the first five that came to mind:

the princess and the warrior
pi
momento
matrix
requiem for a dream
waking life

the fact that my landlord still has not cashed my rent cheque, it's giving me a false sense of security

i tried it once.......an hour later i had the worst cup of coffee of my life

i think she said she was in sherbrooke

i'll be there

electro-breaks

how i wish i could say exactly what i was thinking without worrying so much about the consequences.

amanda: i love that album, it brings back a ton of memories and she's got the best voice

fiona apple-tidal

new tattoos

i once had a dream that i was getting off the subway at spadina station in toronto (i used to live there) and when i walked up the stairs there was a person dead on the floor in a pool of blood.
a couple days later i get off at spadina, walk up the stairs and there's a dude there sitting in a pool of blood.

cuz he makes great music and he's a genuinely very cool nice dude

i like pain.....it makes me feel alive

boards of canada: geogaddi

i'm insane

cuz i hope to meet you to someday cuz you seem like a cool chickita :)

seeing as my moms on the other side of the country i'll be there
at the twentieth piece of grass on the right side

cuz you to think that mayday rules

made: it's finally friday!!!!!!!
made: making plans to go get tattoo done this weekend
ruined: nadda

dj mayday's cd

we exist simultaneously in many realities.
past, present, future.......these are all just words for a linear world in which we are limited by the constraints of time. we exist in a universe where time is meaningless and yet we feel the need to give meaning to our lives by categorizing all moments. we are always everywhere and nowhere.

;)

nah.......i got it
made me choke on my drink

^^^yeah
i want to escape the neverending negative loop my mind is on
even when i'm happy, there's always that voice in the back of my head

denial

so who has a fucking needle?

well i dunno if he's da lllest
but he iz da illest

^^^yeah me too
i piss myself off more than anybody else ever could

so who gets to sleep in the hot spot?

intelligence and a wicked sense of humor
and someone who really doesn't care what
anyone else thinks of them

people who assume that they know what i want and what i'm thinking
when people dismiss what i have to say when i'm at work because i look young
and most of all, people who can't handle the truth, who cannot even admit the truth to themselves piss me off
i wish that people would just be themselves, say what they're thinking and cut out all the pretentious crap

cuz your nice
and your funny

F.A.K rawks
i had a blast
smiling people, wicked music
great party
seb, i wish you had played earlier
i don't like missing your set

how today i feel like i'm standing on the edge of losing it completely and i'm really tired of always holding on