thanks pat :)

passage to nowhere
~~~~~~~~~~
i'm walking through an urban jungle
full of crumbled concrete
and billboard dreams
of gridlockled anxiety
and weekend speed

there's the base in the construction crane's swing
and the soft exhale of the sheesha shop's
embers burning
the apple tastes too sweet in my throat
and the eye of your hopes
i already know
smoke rings
round me

mad dashes through the rain
accross the street
neon flickers under the awning
of broken dreams and played out scenes
and the dust on the tables knows no waste
aside from her once pretty face

hanging out of the bed
blood red rush
of the emotionless fuck
nowhere to go now
when there's nothing inside
but the addiction of rituals
that blow their holes through my mind

the ritual of things

before i watched this movie i had no thoughts on marilyn manson, hadn't listened to his music, hadn't read any interviews.
say the movie, thought he was extremely intelligent, well spoken, watched the interview over a few times.
i'm not looking to jump on a bandwagon, just sharing an observation i had from watching the film.
i suppose i could say nothing, not give credit where i think credit is due........
but why?

i think i'm missing a heart

doctors that can't fix you

to stop pushing people away

i loved his acceptance speech at the oscars

i'd never seen an interview of marilyn mansons before i watched this film. it increased my respect for the dude a thousandfold.

the cartoon is hilarious

the dude with the organic farm is nuts

to the people who love it
dj shadow- pre emptive strike

same thing as amanda

made: getting kinda lost walking around the mountain
ruined: food
ruined: me, like this, again
made: it's only 6, it can still get better

that you can't hide a problem from yourself forever
it just keeps coming back

how disappointed i am in myself
so stupid

there is nothing uglier than 80's "fashion"
but i do like the music
not as much as jungle, but still, it's fun to dance to

i hope i get to hear you play
but i know that
the big day approaches
all will be well i'm sure
i wish you both the best for this

heya clown, i totally agree that the mind can make you do fucked up things. but at the same time, those kids that fall in love with a pop icon at some point grow out of it, it's just a phase they go through.

could you convince your mind to be gay?

i think you could convince yourself to experiment maybe, to try it out as a fad, but to really change, forever.....do you think you could do that?

that's why i don't think gay people can just convince themselves to be straight. i know that they used to try to do that, and all it created was unhappy people who weren't being true to themselves.

i dunno, the people that i know, there's no way they could be any other way, nor would i want them to feel like they aren't good enough the way they are and that they should be trying to change.

but i do see where you're coming from
i just don't agree :)

and neoform, i figured you were, i just wanted to know for sure.

in the 2 % of reality that i can't count on

what's wrong with electro?

and idj is a lot of fun
the music is always awesome
the vibe is good

me
98% sure

:)
thanks

i don't think it's just a mind thing
i've known a lot of gay guys that have always been attracted to men.
i don't think it's an easy thing to do, imagine having to tell all your friends that you were gay (hypothetically)
instant uncertainty....oh no, is he attracted to me? or the reaction at the top of this thread "i think i'm gonna vomit"
suddenly people are looking at you differently, judging you differently, all on the basis of the gender that you're attracted to.
does this happen to straight people? nope
i think that if it was a mind thing, some gay people would not be, cuz it's easier, society wise, to be straight
and why is it that guys fantasize about two girls getting it on and the thought of two guys grosses them out?

the name of the movie i watched last night

"the bay of love and sorrows"

it's a good movie
everybody dies

because this is ravewave, i have absolutely no idea if you're serious
if you are though
why?

'EAT, Danielle, please EAT !'jack in the green


i do
but nobody believes me

espresso has less caffeine than a cup of mild coffee
the longer you roast the beans, the less caffeine they contain

i miss having cats around

tickets to this

[ www.find-lab.com ]

is this for real?


maybe bush should just woo the terrorists with his amazing literary skills

you know i'm a silly
but i like you really really
now give me your thingys
so i don't get the heebegeebezes
wondering when you'll make me go klaboomy




oh how i hate him

i hope they don't kill the tiger because of this

people that play the victim

"poor me, poor me, the world is out to fuck up my life"

it's bullshit

senzala
l'esplanade and bernard


and cafe olympico (i think that's what it's called) on st viateur has the best lattes in the city

and the organic grocery store on parc next to the jean coutu has the nicest owner ever

the cat in your profile pics is so so cute

i totally agree with caro

random compliments from strangers
so silly
so vain
such an ego boost on a gloomy day

when my best bud cracks my back when he hugs me

to go out tonight
or not
do i wanna see people
or not

made: blue dog last night
made: crazy drunk smart dude at sports bar
made: great couch sleep, i love couches
made: the shitty umbrella only flipped backwards once on the walk home
made: it's only saturday
ruined: fucking cold......i can't turn my heat on [ yet......ca ] afford it

i dunno about the food
i just dig the coffee

i dunno
i think a big part of addiction is the altering of your normal state of being
so trying to cure an addiction with something that basically is just the same thing won't do much.
maybe it'll help alleviate the withdrawl symtoms and then allow the person to quit after that.......
bah
whatever

skies are falling