i love being single on valentine's day

NO STRESS!!!!

to be someone else
or to not be
haha
ima loser

^^
that
totally

check out the video link

[ www.lalalahumansteps.com ]

dieselboy+kaos-submission/barrier break

dj food records warped beyond playability

practise finally starting to lead to progress
i LOVE my new speakers

where there is a mouse
there are usually mice
lots and lots of em

good luck man

dj shadow- midnight in a perfect world

me and the crazy crew
can't wait :)

scratch
scratch
scratch

bo

pilates

funnily enough, i used to be like that to.
i was the biggest anti-smoker, up til i was 18.

i finally actually WANT to quit though, after being totally addicted to this crutch for the past 8 years, i need to stop.
i'm just terrified of how insanely angry i get

i think i'm gonna defect
to stott

january 19th

i've set the date
this time i'm gonna do it

any tips on how to deal with the rage that comes with quitting?
every other time i've tried to quit that's what got me started again, all i wanted to do was kill people.

what life experience is there to be found in repeatedly abusing a substance that is ultimately going to leave you as a shell of the human you might have been, with an smidge of the intelligence that you started off with.

maturity comes with life experiences that you LEARN from

not from things that you do, just because it's "your choice" that you learn nothing from except how fucked up you can get in a weekend......week.......lifestyle.

i know the drill, free choice, drugs give you a different perspective, yadda yadda yadda

fine.
i have no problem with experimentation, informed decisions

BUT

drugs are not intelligence, growth or maturity
they are above all, especially in people that have not grown up enough yet, an escape.

so if you decide that you're being smart and mature because it's your free will to do drugs then i have a suggestion for you.
in the next few years you will have to decide what you want to do for a job, find a place to live, survive on your own.
if you waste the opportunities that you have now you will wake up one day in your mid twenties and realize

"aw fuck, why did i do all those drugs and not learn more about LIFE when i had the chance?"

if you feel insulted by this tirade look past that and really think about what you're doing to yourself. what choice are you really making.

this isn't directed at anyone in particular
this is my general "what the fuck are teenagers doing *insert hard drug here* tirade.

yeah, that's it
i'm outta here for good

bottle it up
bottle it up
explode

for a conversation to take place without the subject being dodged

they all just don't get it
i leave if i can walk all over you because you let me

the newspaper article that my boss left in my file holder, passive agressive bullshit.

she has no right to be holding that axe of my past over my head as a reason to judge me.

two more years max, and them i'm opening my own place. fawkin internal bullshit backstabbing, i'd make more money out on my own.

getting on the metro for free

the bliss, of this
is running through my fingertips
tendrils of the winds caress
all things shaped of nothingness

let all of time condence
to form a gravity of purpose
and the scales of life balance out

equating my worth

lessons

in outrunning the reaper
on the fields of the dying

spin me a web of all that i've lost
to catch all that is left of me

as i slip into memory

icicles on eyelashes

preachy assholes

speakers
finally

BOOM BOOM BOOM

the neighbors are gonna really love me now

if that's your dream, good for you, seriously.
i can understand why people want it
it's not for me though
cuz i'm a heartless, have no desire to make joint decisions, don't want to take care of anyone else ever again, have seen nothing but terribly unhappy marriages and grandparents lonely and dying in old folks homes.

and i would be the worst parent
so that's why i don't want those things

i take back the cats though, i'm going to be old, crazy, have lots of cats, and people will cross the street to avoid walking in front of my property.........i'll cackle and not have to dress up for halloween

that's my dream

everybody's different

i like winter
but i also don't care how ridiculous i look in snowpants, sweater, jacket, tuque and a scarf wrapped around my head up to my eyeballs.
it's way easier to deal with the cold than with the crazy heat in the summer

watching the people i teach improve

a spoon makes peeling an orange a snap

a spoon you say?
why yes indeedey

tablespoon though, not teaspoon

i like those plastic circles, they go really fast, and if you find a gully they go up the other side just as fast

toboggan-a long flat sled without runners for coasting downhill (new websters dictionary)

who the hell COASTS on a toboggan
you bomb down the kill man

dan the automator-bear witness 3-featuring q-bert

can anybody play hockey at the rink on mont royal? because i know someone that's been looking for a place to play hockey for free in montreal for years.

and i had no idea that you could skate at parc lafontaine in the winter, i'm so going

oie
if you want an unpredictable, really great show
rent the series 24
it's the best show that i have ever seen, better than oc, better than csi (either one)

what came first?
the chicken or the egg?

this sounds amazing

just so i know, is there a charge at the door?

aiee
people
don't go to tanning salons, you'll regret it in a few years, crocodile skin, cancer, you wind up looking years older than you are.

you girls are gorgeous just the way you are

new years resolutions

"hello,

i am heartbreak.

nice to meet you.

want a cookie?"


hahahahhahhha, i love it
i am starting a collection of quotes like these, this is definitely being added to it.

well i almost made it inside for midnight

had lots of fun dancing downstairs until the flood
had a great conversation with a stranger in the looooong line up for the bathroom
tried to get into the '80s music that was playing, normally i love all things cheesy but it just wasn't happening for me. could just be because i felt like i had been drugged and was dying
was about to leave when mayday came on, discovered music was the cure for death, hung on a bit longer, was sorry that i had to leave when i did....i hate not feeling well when i'm having fun.
so i thought it was a great party, even with the closing of the downstairs room.

happy new years :)

when my contact lens slides up behind me eyelid and i can't stop blinking to get it out

and then it falls out, onto the floor and i can't see it to rescue it.

and then i'm left with a mismatched number or right to left eyeballs in the box.

yup
intense isin't it