low self esteem?

some things are better than sex.

made: carrot cake
made: getting 3/5 done
made: resolve. pure, logical, rational response and resolve.
made: dvd in mah rooooom yay for the purple box. yay for ati.
made: output complete
made: those people who say exactly the right thing at the right time. holyfuck. like the globe's been lifted from my shoulders.

ruined: something funky with the output, and this shit aint compressed. 4 gigs of shizzle. wow.

way to kill a good joke kafwin.

we bonded. we made fun of people. matt's chill in mah books... but not for this "plur" shit on film.

dude. i'm so going to send you this snippet. fucking gold man, catch the wave.

i'll feel better in the morning
the pain will fade as time goes by
what was taken
i wont miss or ill replace
what about me

- bosstones

i need a tylenol.

and a bottle of sleeping pills.

and a mickey of peach shnapps to wash it all down.

made: mom's spaghettii n meatballs

ruined: mom's pissed at me
ruined: vince is pissed at me
ruined: this fucking post-party depression
ruined: bills to pay
ruined: too much shit due for tomorrow
ruined: sporadic stressed out crying at random intervals for varous reasons - namely anything that irks me at said moments... oh! look... there i go again. no reason. fuck.
ruined: can't find the purple box to output

made: there is beer upstairs. thank goddess.

"hi. i'm from new york. maybe i'll hear some french tonight".

i'd put ten bucks on that.

i had fun, i wish i'd stayed longer i was turning into a social whore. i'm a little disappointed the night went by so fast. my brain isnt processing that its 7 pm saturday and i'm cracked as hell.

video "promo" should be out in the next fifteen days. thanks to everyone who had something intelligible (or not so intelligible) to say.

happy friday/saturday morning!

wisdom tooth surgery.

weekend two - seond in a row:
everyting.

i cant see this screen properly.

when the hell did jackie get this sweet as computer? fuuuuuuuuuuck.

girl i want your flatscreen.

montreal ecstacy

i need to import an ontarian

a regular heartbeat

and i need you
but i hurt you
i adore you
blahblahblah
at the end
at the end
at the end
at the end

-iio

waiting for my heart to stop pounding

gonna be cracked tomorrow

made: ravin
made: video project going well
made: meeting fukt for the first time
made: disentangled from reality for a few fleeting hours
made: brief e talk with shaz
made: shaz letting me do her port5folio site and proving to her YES I AM RELIABLE.
made: vince coming over pre-party

ruined: comin down, arms tingling
ruined: the sun's coming up

i

daughters of lilith.

wear that badge with pride thanks.

my goldfish persistently jumped out of their bowls when i was a kid.

was very traumatic.

ahem.

I MISS EURO KARTING.

man they better let me in with my peach shnapps.

the dark side of the craft.

taking karma into your own hands.

fuckendemup.

for her to be shielded from the moment of truth and for him to be brought to his fucking knees.

how some guys deserve the worst, evilest, most cruel treatment for their actions ever.

voodoo doll's coming out again.

asshole.

someone is going to teach you the lesson you need.

goiod old voodoo

boys lie.

are we going to laval? where is it i dont have the infoline #

shit. here we go again.

well i expected something fabulous for you, and with fabulous comes the shit. so it was short-lived, but at least joo happy.

though i wish i could have at least met the girl and given her the standardized threat 'if you hurt my friend ill fucking kill you'. woulda made my day :D

well i need one now damnit.

holy shit it hurts so bad.

i'm drinking tomorrow with the intent of dropping shnapps everywhere. no-more-pills.

not having those two design grafik books from chapters.

In the quickness of our haste
It seems we forget how to live
The old blueprint
No longer manifests itself
As the correct way to exist
Wipe the grime off the view hole
And please take a closer look
Environmental bandits
Up to their shenanigans
Crooks disguised...

We've got to find another way
To make the world go 'round

Our individual roles we think
Not so important to the plot
The big picture unseen
Leaving life in between
Destroyed and over wrought

There's no need to point the finger
We understand who takes the blame
Delinquents caught
Red-handed in the act
Crooks disguised as you and I

We've got to find another way
to make the world go 'round
You see there's many many many
People in the world
And I'm not sure if I like
What I've heard
I'm not sure if I like
What I'm doing myself
I'm not sure if I like how it turns

Degradation
Violation
Inexcusable exploitation
It's the dawning of a new era
People consciously don't care
How unfair

We've got to find another way
To make the world go 'round

spinal fluid.

on the bright side the gossip died down considerably...

but...

BUT.

this this like what? the fifth time i get to say it? I-TOLD-YOU-SO.

and does anyone ever listen? noooooooooo.

made: vietnamese sub
made: sleeping on da bus
made: two exams done
ruined: two to go
made: not studying and still doing supergood
made: friday tomorrow
ruined: ass-busting commencing pronto

this thread is kinda weak.

hence my sarcasm.

hence scottypees sarcasm.

hence why its funny.

how bang-on my intuition always is.

i want it