made: video final 99% done
made: which means i'm FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE
made: so now i can go be reckless and stupid and hurt my brain all over again
made: gonna have a hangover tomorrow
made: good sleep
made: good vibes
made: ebay
made: gypsy vardo
made: sex, beer & video tape

and i want the shirt i want to wear to be clean so i can wear it.

goddamn.

shopping and tams are next on the list of immediate wants.

tequilllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
teeeeeee-kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii-laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

to get drunq.
and romp around the duck pond.

...drowning the pug in beer. is the obligation imposed. i wonder if the dogll fit into my 40.

i remembered the last one... a month later.

beer.
sun.
sex.

someone to finish my video project for me.

made: CDROM SAMPLER PORTFOLIO LAUNCHED.
made: WICKED FEEDBACK, WICKED CRITICISM, EVERYONE LOVED IT.
made: heeeehehehehehehehehe

haevnt you heard?

jeff's the target. all random shit is invariably attracted to him... he's like... the FAN.

i still find it funny hes never heard me yell directly at him, its always muffled by this computer.

...

celebate monkhood.

(

made: big fucking geek all over again
made: almost summer vacation

ruined: that asshole on monday
ruined: still scared of st. catherines street
ruined: isolationism

questionable: is this it? is that all? is it time to go? i dunno. and do i laugh or cry at that?

to know what the fuck is wrong with everyone.

what did i do?

damnit.

...

and i dont wanna go to work.

having to work today.
i dont have TIME for work.
fuck.

there is such a thing as comfortable silence.

goddess forbid i wind up with a person for the rest of my life who doesnt know how to shut up.

meh.

isolationism. weeee.

ya jacko you're right.

everyone is a little off these days.

GUYS. WTF. HA. HA.

fuck man. drugs are bad. they make you take shit too seriously.

everything is suggestion.
opinions, moral fiber, beliefs...

this is why there is no such thing as true uniqueness or true individuality.

welcome to the combine.

considering trish hasnt spoken to me in three weeks i think its most appropriate that i just throw shit at her house while veryones inside having fun.

not embarassed to be alive
i will strive
if your opinions mattered
id fucking die
i dont do things
your way
ill be coming down to see you
today youre moving closer to the edge
you paid your dues
you paved your way
you wonder whats happened to you
youre not a human more than me
and far as the eye can ever see
i never left you anyway
its more than you can ever say
I FORGOT YOUR NAME
but if you can find a way
said thats what im trying to say
some other bait comes your way
you feel better once again

i said thanks for being a friend
but its all a fucking lie
i forgot your name
but id love to see you lie

ill be coming down to see you

and you were a "better friend" than me
(hey hey)

-dbs "sorsha"

we live in a world that loves us not at all, and cares for us even less.

-j.m. skipp

someone to compress all this crap for me so i dont have to do it.

iiiii cant wait for my summer vacation holyfuck

debilitating facial pressure points.

having to resort to pepper spray. this is such bullshit.

made: ass busting almost over
made: eyes more bugeyed
made: overcoming my fear of director

ruined: everything in my head right now is all 'go to the frame go marker quit quit on Mouse me on mouse up change cursor change cursor puppetSound on mouseLeave import import import import save for web import #scroll (bzztclick).

ruined: realizing just how much i missed by leaving jess's at 3 last weekend

ruined: being afraid to walk down st catherines street

ruined: estrangement

ruined: how apparantly IM UNRELIABLE. eat me. and no im not going to fucking prove myself for shit.

made: ENlightenment

made: and this too shall come to pass.

you can look.

if you touch.

ill rip off your arm.

:)

....

what was i saying about objectification?

halfwit.

shennanigans.

adrenalenamenifin.

who says we dont already have the advantage?

you are not the superior sex.

you will not objectify.

you will not subjugate.

you will not abuse.

dont fucking tread on my turf.

i want a stick of dynomite to throw into the forray.

ruined: the absolute truth

made: the absolute truth

ruined: fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
made: you're cool
ruined: fuck you, fuck you
made: i quit.

^^ anthem for the next six years.

incoherent? maybe.
or just too smart for my own good.

"Leave It Alone"

Breath ever soft,
We wouldn't wanna break the eggs as we walk.
Never alone, cautious, afraid,
I hear the voice of reason on the P.A.

Leave it alone, follow the grain,
We couldn't stop the irresistible force.
Leave it the same, change with the leaves
Bringing in the sheaves, bringing in the old.
Leave it alone

DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA
DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA
DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA
DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA

Breath, ever so slight,
We couldn't take away your God given right.
Leave it alone, heel and stay,
Roll over and shake and beg for the bone.
Leave it alone

DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA
DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA
DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA
DA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAA

-noFX

nono. ravers. just ravers. they are my choice of loathed underculture for the week.

ever noticed how digusting it makes you feel? what it does to your head? and for me this is a once in a month phenomena - what about everyday? whenever you're bored? take a bump pop a pill smoke a joint.

fucking disgusting.

i have never lost so much respect for myself ever than i have by looking at the way ive treated my body and brain the last few years ive been partying.

fucking gross.

im so thouroughly disgusted its not even funny.

made: soopatired
made: bugeyed from staring at this screen too long
made: 2/5 projects done

ruined: stress level bumped up 230981232198371 notches.
ruined: last week of class, last finals, last projects - maximum spazzing (rightfuckingnow)

made: see above
made: i love pressure

clown sex roxor`

thats more you than them i think.

...

i vote for matriarchy. anyone?

dis be de last party for a while methinks.

im there.

ill be there until cloud9. no ifs or buts.

ravers are a really stupid breed of people.

not all of them. not the ones with the clouded eyes who are still smiling. the other ones. holy fuck.

i'mn getting the fuck out of this scene pronto.

still an idiot.

rebellion.

how conformity breeds hatred.

abundant temple whores