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It is one minute till Midnight and here I am doing nothing at all. Alot has been going on in my mind lately, I have had a few weeks that have been unlike most of my weeks. Oddly enough I keep running into this Awesome Mitch guy I met through a promoter here in Ottawa. When I met him I was completely taken but I just kept it to myself, I mean, come on... Ottawa scenester hanging out with a kid I've known since he was in diapers, He'll never show any interest in me... Well tonight I was with his friend and apparently they talked about me after the last Rave that we all hung out at all night, Word on the street is Mitch thinks I'm "pretty chill". I was wondering for a while too, you'd think that the day he saw me and I told him about my adventure to Stereo to see Deadmau5 and he told me to call him and gave me his number I'd have caught on... apparently not lol I can be pretty dense sometimes.

Now I don't know what to do I mean I've made subtle hints that I like him but nothing overly serious. His friend says we should just start hanging out more often and see what happens, which is probably what's gonna happen but I don't know, I might just stay in my little shell, I mean, I've been happy here for the last year, Liking people but not actually having any relationship which has meant not ever having to give myself to anyone. Not having to worry about the pain I fear so much after being hurt so badly last year. Maybe This will be the one that pulls me out of that shell though... I don't know... I really don't...