| Posted On: | 2008-05-03 17:18:31 |
I'm so sick and tired of trying to find happieness, only to fail at every turn.
The only thing that ever works out the way I'd like it to is nothing.
I feel so sub-human.
Unwanted.
Unappreciated
Unable to enjoy things that make people happy.
Unable to enjoy things that make me happy.
Every time I try and open myself up, I get a painful reminded of why I shut myself away.
The only people that ever make me happy never seem to want to.
I can't eat the food I love, I can't play out the way I want to, I can't make the music I love, I can't
hold on to anything worth holding on to. I can never make it to anything I reach out for, and
everything I get my hands on gets violently ripped from me when I need it the most.
I hate hope.
Every time I hope, I get let down.
Every time I hope, another part of me dies.
