Things That Piss You Off
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» cactain_steef replied on Sun Oct 26, 2003 @ 5:14pm |
 Coolness: 155425 | fukn a d d, n restlessness n confusion mixed together! + spliff = AHHHH- wait- hahaha, NOOO! selfish skanky, scavenging, unsharing piece of cock!
(not searching for pity, honessstly! just ranting.) retarded moods, an when they dont go away :( ppl thinking its for attention, but relaly its NOOOT. hha ok, m loud anyways n some shit just makes me even less aware of how i am acting, or more aware of how much i am less aware? haha this is sooo gEIghh! hooow many times have i gone over this? urgh. the problem isnt.. going.. away. GHRUHGRU>. gurgle. uhh.;asd *rambles on./. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» elixireleven replied on Sun Oct 26, 2003 @ 7:17pm |
 Coolness: 74590 | missed my samhain rit.
because my parents are ASSHOLES. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» A_Princess replied on Sun Oct 26, 2003 @ 7:44pm |
 Coolness: 62595 | All couples who are seemingly rubbing it my face that I am single.....
*thinks of growth, independence, personal freedom, and sticks in the I Will Survive song* |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» julie_eaves replied on Sun Oct 26, 2003 @ 10:55pm |
| Coolness: 95025 | never being able to fall asleep at night when I can go to bed early
never being able to sleep in when I have the time too and always being super tired and ready to sleep when I cant or shouldnt..and always being able to sleep in on the days when i have to work ITS REALLY PISSING ME OFF. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Violence_Inc replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 2:21am |
 Coolness: 174840 | My mind |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» cloud9ine replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 7:25am |
 Coolness: 139470 | chelsea: shhhh. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Mali replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 8:09am |
 Coolness: 202865 | when you do something nice for someone... and they are too lazy to do something equally nice for you.. hehe |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Screwhead replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 3:40pm |
 Coolness: 686340 | Knowing how Galaksy feels with records that he wants and other people getting them because he told them the song was good.
Fucking hell I'm seriously pissed off. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» julie_eaves replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 3:53pm |
| Coolness: 95025 | Getting caramel all over myself and my computer and the keyboard and the mouse and my desk |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» lakester replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 4:03pm |
 Coolness: 60430 | yeah, caramel can be tricky. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» julie_eaves replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 4:31pm |
| Coolness: 95025 | but ohhh so tasty! |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Bunnytronix replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 4:49pm |
 Coolness: 153260 | Parents asking all these questions on: if I'm coming alone or not for Christmas. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» toebee replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 4:57pm |
 Coolness: 87815 | when they just dont get it... |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Screwhead replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 5:19pm |
| Coolness: 686340 | fuck this.
[rant] Why do I even fucking try shit anymore? Why the fuck do I ever bother having "dreams" and "hopes" for shit? Every time I think I've started to get ahead and start fixing myself up and find myself a reason to go on, a reason to keep pushing, someone comes and fucks my shit up and kicks the ladder I'm trying to climb out from under me. I've spent 6 fuckin' years making music, and it's only in the past year or so that I've done anything even remotely close to what I wanted to make. What's the reaction I get from people? "Your music is too repetitive" or "You use shitty software so your music sucks". No one ever fucking has anything good to say about anything. For every single person that's out there providing support, there's 20 people who keep fuckin' trying to tear me down. Before I get pissed off enough and lose faith in music completely, I decide I'll try a diffrent aproach for now. I'll pick up some records and try and learn to spin. Even if it's not my own music, at least I'll be bringing SOMETHING of myself to people with music that I like. I Start making mixes with MP3s to get an idea of what I'd want to spin, what artists I'd like to get records of, what tracks I have to get because they're just too fucking amazing and I want to play them, etc. What happens? I get a fucking phone call. "Hey, you know that record you really really want with the song you put on your mix that you love? They have one copy left at DNA and aren't planning on ordering any more, so I'm buying it instead, too bad for you, HA HA!" WHAT THE FUCK? Thank you, I was certain friends were there to help each other out, not rip each other off and make each other feel like absolute fucking shit. As if I didn't fucking spend enough of my time depressed and losing faith in music, the one thing I love, now my "friends" are sneaking up on me and pulling out the rug from under my feet when I'm trying to stand. I fucking give up. I do everything to help people get what they want, I'm there for people whenever they want to talk or need help for anything, and in return they all do nothing but spend their time undermining every single fucking effort I make to bring myself happieness and laugh at me while doing it. Fuck this shit. No more making music, no more making mixes, no more helping people find the shit they want. I'm through being nice. I'm through fooling myself that people are my friends. When I need the most fucking support and help, everyone just turns their fucking backs to you and when your not looking they fucking stab you and twist the blade. As soon as I'm done downloading all my shit to make sure I have at least a small "archive" of what I used to do, I'm taking down all my songs. Thanks to everyone that's ever shown even the slightest bit of support and that might actually like some of my music (though I find it hard to imagine anyone ever wanting to listen to my "repetitive crap") but there are too many haters, and the few of you that show support just aren't enough to keep me going. [/rant] |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Agent_Yogurt replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 5:24pm |
| Coolness: 134360 | fighting with friends |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» flatlinedive replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 5:52pm |
| Coolness: 64655 | yeah
losing the one thing you've ever loved sucks (and i'm not talking about people here, but the one thing that keeps you going) and what sucks even more is that you can never replace it. life is grand ain't it? you can try, do other things, find other interests.........but the intensity, the passion gone |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Screwhead replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 5:55pm |
| Coolness: 686340 | It's been a long time since my passion for music has been dwindling to non-existant levels. Just when I find a picker-upper, I get the rug pulled out from underneath me by a "friend".
I'm certain that sooner or later, I might start being passionate about something again. But right now, I've lost faith in everything. Christ, as if being alone and single wasn't enough, now I've really got nothing. Life is grand. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» lakester replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 6:15pm |
| Coolness: 60430 | Dude, don't make music for others. Make it for yourself. You're not here to please others or make others happy. You're here to make yourself happy. And if your music makes you happy, or helps you get your emotions out, then by all means, do it, regardless of whether others think it's repetetive or made with shitty software. People can talk all the shit they want about your music, but can they do better?
I'm really into graffiti, and when I'm in a crummy mood, or I need to get some emotions out, I'll sketch something, like my ex's nickname. If I were to show it to others, I'd get more comments than compliments. Regardless, it made me feel good to do the sketch, I like what it represents and I'm proud of what I accomplished. Even if the style sucks or even if I used cheap Crayolas instead of expensive Prismacolors. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Screwhead replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 6:42pm |
| Coolness: 686340 | That's the thing now. It's not making me happy anymore. It's become a chore to get just a simple beat down. It's like I've lost the passion I once had for music. It's NOT making me happy anymore, making OR listening to music. Shit, how many people can say that they put on their favorite album, and about 1 minute into the first track had to turn it off because I was crying. He can make music, he can make what comes from inside of him, and it's obvious that that's where his heart is. You can hear it in every single note of the guitar, you can hear it in the placement of the samples from an old radio show, you can hear how much he loves what he's doing, and I can't come up with anything that I feel a fraction as passionately about anymore. I've never made music for other people. Sometimes, granted, someone asked me to do something, like when Galaksy asked me to make an intro theme-song for the first Battle of the Galaxies, but like, I came out with the entire track, mixed and mastered in under 45 minutes because my heart was in it. I had a vision of what was would sound good, and it came out in a perfectly clear, straight line, from my brain into my software of the first shot. It's like my old Spookycore stuff. There was some "thinking" behind the music, like the combination of 6/4 hardcore with 4/3 tribal metal drums to make disjointed yet scarily coherent rythms and melodies, and that always came from deep inside. All of the songs were a reflection of my mental state as well as my love for horror movies thrown together. The 6/4 hardcore to show a sort of "stability" and the sudden switch to extremely agressive 4/3 tribal metal drumming to show how no matter how structured and smothly things might be going for me, something would always come out and fuck shit up and turn everything crazy and hectic. Sometimes you could see the buildup, sometimes it would catch you totaly off guard, and for one song I even blended them together constantly to have 2 clashing rythms that somehow stayed together in beat, while being in 2 completely diffrent rythms and time signatures, showing how my life has gone from stable-chaotic-stable-chaotic to just a steady stream of being chaotic and uncertain.
I can't get it out of me anymore. I can't even hear the music in my head like I used to. I can't even listen to other's music anymore because I hear a passion I once had that I've lost, and it makes me incredibly sad. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» lakester replied on Mon Oct 27, 2003 @ 6:52pm |
| Coolness: 60430 | If it helps any, I don't think you can lose a passion like that. It's like riding a bike, you don't forget.
I've only tried my hand at making music once, so I'm not an expert on the subject, but I'm sure that when you write music, you put a lot of yourself and your feelings into your music. Maybe who you are now is different from who you were a few months ago, and so now you gotta try putting different emotions into what you do, maybe try a different genre of music. Maybe this is something like writer's block. Everyone has their creative ups and downs. Like I said, I'm not an expert, so I'm not sure. And I don't know you personally, so I'm not 100% what I'm saying. But I hope it helps you somewhat. One thing I do know for sure is don't give up on music. It's like the one constant in life. It's always there for you when you need it. It'll never ditch you for another guy, it'll never stop hanging out with you cause it found someone cooler, it'll never dump you because you smell funny. It's there for you always, unconditionally. |
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