Dependency For Methamphetamine
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» DaRkRaVeR replied on Mon May 5, 2003 @ 11:31pm |
 Coolness: 73125 | do ya just have to put up with withdraw from methamphetamine? ... or is there an easier way to stop? |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» nothingnopenope replied on Mon May 5, 2003 @ 11:48pm |
 Coolness: 201950 | rehab
and even that doesn't work most of the time |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» DaRkRaVeR replied on Mon May 5, 2003 @ 11:53pm |
| Coolness: 73125 | hmmmm.... i donno if it's that bad to go into rehab... anyone know the serious symptoms? |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» nothingnopenope replied on Mon May 5, 2003 @ 11:54pm |
| Coolness: 201950 | ever met ben ? |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» DaRkRaVeR replied on Mon May 5, 2003 @ 11:55pm |
| Coolness: 73125 | nope, who's Ben? |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» mdc replied on Mon May 5, 2003 @ 11:57pm |
 Coolness: 149540 | hahahahahahaha!
laughter |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» neoform replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 12:00am |
 Coolness: 340390 | meet ben then you'll know. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» DaRkRaVeR replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 12:00am |
| Coolness: 73125 | what's up with that? |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» mdc replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 12:01am |
| Coolness: 149540 | meth addict = ben
laughter ensues |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» nothingnopenope replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 12:07am |
| Coolness: 201950 | serious symptoms: heart and vein damage, permanant brain damage, psychosis, loss of weight, skin damage, lung damage if you smoke it (coughing up blood), mood disorders
It can causes paranoia and violent tendencies (wink wink) And if you are the least bit addicted then it's almost impossible to quit without detox, don't believe what some people "claim". |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» daFTWin replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 6:44am |
 Coolness: 277160 | Im going to go ahead and be completly honest with you people because I expect respect and maturity from a couple of you who might take the opertunity to say something that doesnt need to be said. I mean im going to talk as someone whos experienced being dependent on it and my views and reaons why.
Jay.. You can become dependent on it. And it isnt hard to. My first experience with meth was (as an occasional drug user) at a time when I felt the need to be high to escape reality. I was at an extremely low point in my life where I found myself emotionally unstable. The first time I ever tried it was (as some of you may remember) thierrys birthday party. I was with some friends from out of town who hard purchased crystal and kept trying to get me to try it. I had always been able to say no but like I said before I needed an escape and it was the only thing available to me. So I said yes. I soon realized what it did. It gave me an almost speed like affect but so mild to myself yet clearly apearent to others. It made the nervousness, the saddness, the anxiousness I had almost completly dissapear.. I was able to not care about things that normally would have me in tears. I found something that gave me the perfect escape I was looking for, and I loved it. I loved how synical it made me. How bitchy and mean I was able to be.. how quick I was with comebacks and how much fun I was having. It took over my life. It took my bigest problem and made it non-existant. I kept doing it..and caring less. The bad part was when I came off it. All my problems thought gone came back and hit me all at once.. bringing me lower then where I originally was. I needed to escape again.. fuck school I was emotionally unstable!!.. that was more important. So I went back to it.. I escaped again.. I forgot again.. I didnt care again.. I was happy again. and in the end isnt that what everyone wants. To just be happy? It was for me. By this point I found myself doing only two things. Escaping through crystal and defending myself here.. no time for school I would wake up to late sit here for hours defending myself go out and escape again. It came to a point where I was up for 5 days straight, high. the last day I found myself in someones apartment for an after party filled with people I had just met recently met or had talked to a couple of times previously. I called the two people who I thought would join me.. I wasnt ready to sleep yet. I waited and waited for one of these two people to show up. They never did.. I would pass out wake up, pass out wake up.. finally I felt like I was going crazy I wasnt able to talk to anyone I wasnt myself.. I wasnt on earth.. I left and from what is normally a simple trip home seemed to me like the hardest thing I have ever done.. I couldnt decide which bus to take I didnt know which street to walk down or to go to the metro.. I decided to walk out of may way three blocks and then down to the bus. As I aproached it it pulled off.. I was cold, and the bus going in the opposit direction came I got on it.. went to the metro and got on another bus that took me home..the second I sat on the bus I went blank.. but I could also hear two of my friends talking at the front of the bus.. or at least people who sounded like them.. I knew it wasnt them but im my head it was.. I got off got on another bus home and the same thing.. my two friends were again there having a conversation. I got home and went to bed right away. Bassicly for me personally it was an escape.. Others also did it for the exact reason as me.. We all needed to escape our problems, our realities.. Mine came at a high price.. I had litterally said fuck you to school and dropped out.. I had 2 weeks left. I caused the most important people in my life grief that I would only wish on the devil himself. I feel I speak for others when I say it just happend to come around at the right time. I was weak, I wasnt able to cope.. but I soon had to stop.. events in my life made me unable to escape because as a reality they didnt seem real, they didnt seem possible. The events made my reasons for escaping go away.. Someone needed me to be me and I knew I had to. After that things went back to me needing to escape everyonce in a while.. When I needed to forget the pain and hurt that would resurface everyonce in a while. The fact that I was doing nothing with my life and I was to far gone to do anything about it.. I Finally came to the conclusion that my reasons for escaping had to be dealt with. I dealt with them and was able to resolve them. I had no reason to escape anymore. Not like I once had. It became something I did once a month.. like when I went out and found myself without a way home I would go to someones house and keep myself up. I saw that as fine.. Kinda like a raver who will take 5 speeds a month or more.. me doing meth once a month was fine.. I didnt keep myself up too long and when I started to feel tired I slept. Recently I found those reasons for me to escape have come back.. I left my house in that state of needing to get high.. I didnt go looking for it but my distination brought me to it. The events that made me need to escape had left me without apetite and going on little to no sleep already so I hadnt eaten much the days before. I escaped once again and it felt good. When I layed back down in bed 35hrs later I closed my eyes and told myself never again. I feared waking up and facing my reality and boy did it ever hit hard. I woke up and with in seconds I found myself in tears. I had only slept 5 hours ontop of it. My dilema now is that I fear being too weak and being able to use it as an escape again.. I have notified those who made it available to me and told them about my fear.. I told them that I needed them to not allow me to to do it as an escape and let it become a permanent one.. The thing with them, like I have mentioned before is that alot of users fell into it as a escape. They could relate and contrary to what you may think are friends who I can trust to be the friends I am asking them to be. Others use it as a way to motivate them.. feel like they wouldnt be able to do the one thing that brings them joy if they dont get that lift it gives you once in a while.. But your right people do it just to try it, fall inlove and become addicted. Others did it just to try it had fun with it for a while and haven't gone back since.. I hope im able to face my reality without turning to anything.. Because waking up in tears isnt exactly pleasent. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» DaRkRaVeR replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 9:35am |
| Coolness: 73125 | Then I think i'm addicted to it really bad... i've found myself breaking down at work for no reason and crying hard, but that vividly changed to anger and ended up hurting myself with all the rage built inside me... punching a brick wall to a point where i left blood on the wall. my knuckles on both hands seemed to look like i had one huge bloody knuckle... i Psychologically unstable as well, and wanna be alone in them times... but being alone scares me because i would have other bad thoughts in my mind I felt was the only way out.
I think scotty is right too, i need detox. thanks, scotty and Kafwin :) |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» da_instagatah replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 10:28am |
 Coolness: 144955 | Hey Jay, you're not on Meth I know that's for sure...
I think you need to control yourself that's all...Talk to someone about it...I used to do alot of Meth and haven't been near it in almost 4 months. Talk to me if you need some advice. P.s. Those Ben cracks, O.K, they're mega true and funny, and well, a good example of a Meth addict, but still, those shits shouldn't be said, still. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» Miss_Amanda replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 12:47pm |
 Coolness: 161270 | I agree
cheap shots. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» nothingnopenope replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 1:35pm |
| Coolness: 201950 | I dont find it funny, it's very sad.
But someone who has caused other people so much greif doesn't deserve any respect from me. Once someone threatens me I don't hold back on anything... Kafwin: it's good that you realized the pitfalls of meth before it completely destroyed your life. Drugs are just a temporary solution to life's problems, and they just end up adding these problems and making them worse... |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» OMGSTFUDIEPLZKTX replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 1:56pm |
| Coolness: 67240 | Being dependant on meth is bad enough, trying to fight it while hanging out with other people who are doing meth is much worse.
Maybe its time to think about those friends. Lets face facts, they helped bring you down... |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» da_instagatah replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 3:06pm |
| Coolness: 144955 | It's all about who you hang out with, yes.
Hang out with people that do Speed, and how are you gonna get away from it? Hang out with non-users and you're more likely to be able to quit. Change your scenery/environment a bit, change a few things you're doing, don't go to a party for a while even... |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» PitaGore replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 4:04pm |
 Coolness: 472530 | Give Ben a break monkeys !
And i'm no mth-tard but almost a speedfreak ....whixh is as bad ... I don't wanna end up like Motorhead's singer who's doctor prescribes him speed on a daily basis, otherwise its heart would stop beating ... Nooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» nothingnopenope replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 7:06pm |
| Coolness: 201950 | The worst "friends" are the ones who give you stuff like meth for free and contribute to the creation of a new addict. Those people should be shot at point blank. |
| Good [+1]Toggle ReplyLink» OMGSTFUDIEPLZKTX replied on Tue May 6, 2003 @ 7:23pm |
| Coolness: 67240 | want to go a murdering spree mr scottyp?
IT RHYMES v0id > ODB |
Dependency For Methamphetamine
[ Top Of Page ] |
Post A Reply |
You must be logged in to post a reply.
[ Top Of Page ] |
