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Title:Understanding
Posted On:2002-10-25 00:00:00
Posted By:» Belldandy
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Hi!

It's been a while since I've wanted to email you... this is probably the first time I contact you for a reason other than drugs.

I feel guilty.

You have, I am sure, been selling drugs for longer than I have. However, in the only few months I ever did, I had the occasion to notice quite a few things about the people around me.

At first, I thought I'd only sell to close friends, because I didn't want to run into any problems. However, the word spread quickly, and I was, after a very short time, selling to a few people every day, opposed to a few people every week.

That's when I noticed a very distinct change in the way people acted around me.

People became artificial. They were actors. Some that I barely knew started greeting me - some acted as if they were my best friends. I was not a human being anymore - only an object, a vending machine.

This, however, gave me a very interesting but discouraging insight concerning society and the whole drug scheme. People stopped caring for me as a person. They only cared about the ammount of whatever substance I had on myself, and how much it cost, and what it did.

I've also become very paranoid. But that's another story.

I don't know if you feel the same way sometimes. Do you ever feel used by the people who buy from you, instead of the opposite?

All I wanted to say is that I would love to get to know you at least just a little better, some day. I'm sure it'd make me feel less guilty for doing to you what others have been doing to me.
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